I have yet I have not...

I have moved forward
yet i have moved backwards
I have attained
Yet i have lost

I have loved
Yet i have not
I have found
Yet i have lost

I have been shattered
Yet i have been put together
I have weeped
Yet i have smiled

I have fought
Yet i have not
I have won
Yet have been defeated

I have hope
Yet i see doom
I see the light
Yet I see darkness

I am happy
Yet i am sad
I am glad
Yet I am gloom

I am bleeding
Yet I have no cuts
I am wounded
Yet i have no scars.

I pray
Yet I have lost faith